Everything's going to be fine

Heyy! I'm so happy to be back and I hope I didn't freak you guys out with my last post. :) Wo mei shi la..well, the worst part is definitely over and I just need to report back to the doctor twice a week (which apparently isn't going to be fun), take antibiotics and various other pills on a daily basis. The doctor's haven't been able to explain how I got the infection which is kind of scary but I'll just have to do as they say and wait for the slow recovery. But if you guys know me well, I may have told you that since I was young, I haven't been able to swallow pills very well if at all. I used to grind them up in a tablespoon and mix it with water. Nowadays I bite them into quarters before trying to gulp it down in 2 or 3 attempts. I know..I'm a big adult who can't swallow tiny little pills. *chuckles I googled this the other day and I'm somewhat relieved to learn that there are other people out there like me. I know it's a mental thing, need to relax n'stuff but I'm getting there..I should practice with grapes of something. =T

So yeah, staying at the hospital was pretty rough just because of all the emotions I was feeling and the environment didn't do much to ease the anxiety. The operation room looked abit like a scene from a twisted horror movie but the nurses and doctor's were pretty nice to me and a few of them tried to sooth my nerves abit. Not that it's anything to be proud of but I do now have bragging rights to say that I've underwent my first health battle in Beijing of all places. Didn't shower during those few days so one can imagine how smelly I was getting on top of the summer heat because our rooms didn't have a/c's turned on. (The elderly lady beside me strictly refused so I couldn't be selfish and ignore her right?) Mm..totally appealing I know. =P Talking about appealing, the food wasn't too bad either probably because I wasn't expecting much. I mainly ate plain congee and even though it would've tasted alot better with a speck of salt, it's still hits the spot and will always be my comfort food when I'm ill. On the last day I had some noodles with tomato+eggs and I will ALWAYS remember how awesome it was... It could possibly be the best bowl of 6rmb noodles I have ever had in Beijing just because I was starving. =)

I've just been trying to rest up abit and yesterday I went out to Zhongguancun for a Subway sandwich & conveniently went to check out some sound systems and then went out to Rumi for my celebratory meal *mmm good persian food. Since we were at the Sanlitun Village area, got the chance to watch abit of the South Africa vs. Mexico FIFA match at Luga's. Yeah, me and my diet coke amidst the rowdy beer drinkers, I love the excitement and atmosphere here - it's so intense! Oh, my parents also sent me a goodies box full of love which I rec'd yesterday. From Vancouver to Hong Kong and then to Beijing all in like..2 days? hehe They got me 1kg worth of unsalted almonds, Kellogg's all bran bars (love!!), a big bag of Ocean Spray cranberries, Sunkist chewable vitamin c's and a box of instant Quaker oatmeal with maple & brown sugar (because my mom thinks I miss maple syrup haha). Yeah, I can picture people going "eww how can you be happy to receive that?!" and my reply would be yes, as per my personal request my mom got exactly what I needed. <3<3

Alrighty, time for domokun to fight on for the next few weeks..*roarr.. Take good cares. xxx - pc

我不是一个女强人

I just want to say that I am so lucky to have such good friends by my side who have have accompanied me or given me moral support in the past 3 days. Anyways, I'm not really in the right frame of mind & mood to explain everything but I feel like I've been through an emotional roller coaster ride, traveling in and out of 4 different hospitals trying to seek medical assistance. I have to say that I am mentally exhausted. Physically I'm still like an duracell battery but to think that IF I was a 50-70 year old person living in China and I had to go through the same ordeal? No way... I would have passed out from the lengthy wait to see the 外科 consultation.

There are still a lot of things which frustrates me when I think about it but there's nothing that I can do now because I have already tried going to the so-called best hospital in Beijing and after their kind-but-obvious rejection due to their inadequate beds to patients ratio, I guess I'll have to take the advice and go back to the hospital that was already taking care of me. I guess it's not so easy to simply 'switch' hospitals. Anyways, it's been a rough few days but everything is going to be alright. I just need to focus on what to eat and do before & after my little surgery to make my healing time shorten and be as hassle-free as possible.

Friends, family or anyone traveling to Beijing. If you are ill or in pain, please for the sake of your overall comfort and general well-being don't just go to any hospital, I would seriously recommend you to go to Xiehe Peking Union Medical College Hospital in Wangfujing and enter from the Southern Gates because they cater more to the foreign patients. At least I can walk away from this and say that I have truly gotten a full Beijing experience. I can't wait to leave on Wed/Thurs get back to my dorm and just take a breath of relief. hehe I know this has nothing to do with the problem I have now but I'm seriously going to start treating my body like a temple. People who think I'm health conscious haven't seen nothing yet. No more spicy food, vendor snacks or anything that looks sketchy. (But sitting on the bed, watching tv and eating out from a tub of chocolate ice cream with a wooden baby spoon is fine hehe *wink). I used to think that I rarely get ill but now I truly know how weak & vulnerable my body is. Your health is so important, so don't take it for granted!! =(

如果我没有你们的话我就不会有那么多能力去斗争或者面对我的情况，谢谢。
Thank you Jason, Neil, Noel and Paul for your help. I am very grateful and I know that I'll need to walk away from this and learn to accept acts of kindness even when I feel like it's too much trouble. If I were in their shoes I would have done the same thing but I have always felt bad when I see people going out of their way to put me as their number one priority. There must be something wrong with me... but thank you for not listening or letting me go through this by myself. =')