Ironically I like lemonade..

Indépendant de coup manqué.. film étonnant bon.

Thought: I want to deactive my facebook account but that wouldn't be cool right? I'd be leveraging and distancing myself = making things worse. Not that I even go on anymore unless I get an email notice.. sigh. Whatever, I just want to crawl under my blanket and sleep n' sleep until a few dates that I'm looking forward to. Guess I'll just work and keep my mind off things.

At first it wasn't that big of a deal but now I'm always reminded of things that we'd smile about. Thanks K for the talk last nite. I'm glad we're keeping up with our meetings so that it's not like we only meet once a month. :) Sometimes you appear weaker and me the stronger independent one but I guess I'm not much better off than you. *chuckles. And thanks to A for the hug & reassurance. It's nice to have a familiar feeling of the past normality. Unfortunately I don't think I'll be happy when I go out for a very very veryy long time. It's all about the mind I guess.. the songs, the places, the jello.. I don't want to be in hibernation mode but all the good times we had seems so hard to attain as a group now :(

This is pretty annoying eh. Normally I don't like to post really personal/direct stuff about myself here.. Sorry. It'll be my last, I'll save the really grim stuff in my physcial diary. You'll see no more of this, promise!

Peggy just deal with it, get with the program. And think happy happy thoughts.

It'll be alright

I'm a silly girl.
No regrets though.
I would've gone down the same route again if it were to repeat.
Because it was worth it.
Kind of wish I didn't throw the white towel in so soon.
But I'm glad I took the step back while I still had the will power to.
It's just hard when you heart & mind don't really correlate.
Grin and bare with it.
And snapping out of my trance.
Can someone cheer me up..and keep me home this weekend?

I miss you.. again... P.I.C. (Think NYE and santa hat) hehe. Just a wondering thought: Guys say 'bros over hos' so whats the equivalent for girls?

Pictures are often worth a thousand words but I say they're endless, each with a long story behind it...

Damn. You really never know where life will lead you sometimes. I love you girls. I'm not v. expressive with words especially face to face but inside I just want to HUG y'all like crazy because that's how much you all mean to me. We've been apart for 7 years and it was alright right? THIS DOES NOT BY ANY MEANS MEAN THAT THE NEXT TIME I SEE YOU IS WHEN WE'RE 30 SOMETHING. You get my point right? heehee

Quest for the perfect Red Velvet will never end. xx

Devoted to my homie-flo

13071985 girl...this is indeed the positive side of you:

"You are extremely sensitive, a quality that has its good and bad sides. Speaking positively, no other sign except Pisces feels as deeply as you do. You've had a great deal of tears-in-your-beer nights, and these experiences have led you to a deeper understanding of life, and a strong commitment to care for others, because you know what they're going through in times of trouble. You comfort, you counsel, you console. This makes you an ideal friend. Once you make a friend, you're always there for them, to bail them out, to keep their secrets, to take their hysterical late-night phone calls. If anyone or anything threatens them, you're the first to defend them— not by erupting into attack mode, but by retreating into a bunker and lying in wait, like a crab retreats into his hole. Your first line of defense is your tough outer shell, which is hard enough to crack. If threatened further, you then attack with your pincers." haha

If you must stay in 401, we must must must reunite in beijing/japan or LAOS okay?Heart youu!!

And me being the 03101985 girl...this will be the downfall of me:

"You have a hard time making decisions. It's not that you're weak, it's that you're so balanced. You see both sides of an issue clearly, and would rather not take a side for fear of offending the other. This can result in lost opportunities and ineffectuality in all aspects of life." (Ffffaaaaccck! so true..)

And this week goes to prove it. I know what's right for me and at the same time that's not what I really want. So torn :(

For just a moment..

..the things I'd go out of my way to do, see & feel..

If the stars were mine I'd give them all to you
I'd pluck them down right from the sky and leave it only blue
I would never let the sun forget to shine upon your face
so when others would have rain clouds you'd have only sunny days
If the stars were mine I'd tell you what I'd do
I'd put the stars right in a jar and give them all to you

If the birds were mine I'd tell them when to sing
I'd make them sing a sonnet when your telephone would ring
I would put them there inside the square, whenever you went out
so there'd always be sweet music whenever you would walk about
If the birds were mine I'd tell you what I'd do
I'd teach the birds such lovely words and make them sing for you
I'd teach the birds such lovely words and make them sing for you

If the world was mine I'd paint it gold and green
I'd make the oceans orange for a brilliant color scheme
I would color all the mountains, make the sky forever blue
So the world would be a painting and I'd live inside with you
If the world was mine I'd tell you what I'd do
I'd wrap the world in ribbons and then give it all to you
I'd teach the birds such lovely words and make them sing for you
I'd put those stars right in a jar and give them all to you.

by: Melody Gardot

We are such cryptics. If you could see it through my eyes, then maybe you'd see why I'm giving this a try but then again even I don't truly understand myself. It's not the kind of thing I'd normally ever get myself into. This is a class that I cant help but attend because I feel like I'll learn something out of it. Irregardless of whether or not it's worth it, or if I'm a fool at the end of the day, I think I've mentally prepared myself for the outcomes up ahead. So that's sort of alright oui? :P